Life can be so cruel…and my heart goes out to you and your children.
I can totally understand why you feel there is no future but, in time, things will settle into a new ‘normal’….and the future is your children. You are entitled to wear rose tinted goggles because, regardless of how difficult things have been (largely due to circumstances beyond your control), you have just lost the man you love.
I hope you have friends or family to give you help and support….and take care of yourself. xx