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Topic: I'm still here
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Gill H
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I'm still here
Had a bad few days. Just coming up to 5 months. Had a girls weekend away ,that i go on each year, and really enjoyed it but came home and ...guess what... hes not here. Then theres his sisters 50th birthday coming up, big family party, but he wont be here to share it with us.
So today my bereavement support lady (doesnt like to be called a councellor) came and i cried and cried and cried. She was lovely as usual.
At the supermarket this afternoon for some reason i picked up a book called 'An Angel by my side' and put it in the trolley. Just been browsing through and the first thing i found was this poem by the author:-
Still here...
I saw you standing at my grave
...but i'm still here.
I saw you turn and say goodbye, you waved
....but i'm still here.
I heard you call my name as you slept last night,
I felt your pain and fear and fright
...but i'm still here.
I heard you wonder how you'd cope alone
...but i'm still here.
I heard you sob, I heard you moan
...but i'm still here.
I saw you as you held your head in your hands,
With the world still full of your time's demands
...but I'm still here.
I held you in my arms today
...I'm still here.
I felt your response because you knew there was a way
...I'm still here.
I know you felt my hand as it brushed against your cheek,
I haven't left your side, I've been here all week
...I'm still here.
I have a new home where I now reside
...but I'm still here.
Love is still the same from the 'other side'
...and i'm still here.
From time to time I'll pop in and say hello,
I'm really sorry that I had to go
...but I'm still here.
It's my greatest wish that you live each day
...knowing I'm still here.
Life must carry on and I know you'll find a way
...knowing I'm still here.
I promise one day, there'll be an ease to your pain,
And I want you to begin to live your life again
...knowing i'm still here.
You still have so much more of your life to live
...but I'm still here.
Your beautiful soul has such a lot to give
...and I'm still here.
Lots more dancing, singing and fun,
Parties to attend and things to be done
...and remember...I'm still here.
I think that maybe Eddie has guided me today into buying that book. If so, well i'll do my best my love, always and foreverxx
Hope maybe this brings some comfort to us all,especialy those who are struggling.
Love Gill xxxxx
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 19:49 |
Penny
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Re: I'm still here
Gill,
thanks for the poem it was lovely but found it hard to read through the tears. It was 8 weeks yesterday still finding it all difficult to believe how my life has changed so much.
Penny
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 20:13 |
friend
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Re: I'm still here
Hi Gill
Thank you so much! - I needed that .
Take care all.
x
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 20:17 |
Andrea M
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Re: I'm still here
Sorry you are having a low spell GillI do hope finding the book has helped. Whenever someone posts a poem on this site I feel what appropriate and helpful words. I have copied and printed quite a lot now and look at them from time to time.
It is good to remind ourselves that our loved ones are around us and continue to love and support us. Like you I think we all feel out of love we need to do our very best. I know I feel a sense of continuing on my own what Rob and I began ie our family.
Hope you have a better spell, thinking of you
love
Andrea
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 20:23 |
Jean
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Re: I'm still here
Hi Gill
What a lovely poem shed a few tears whilst reading it. Sorry you are feelin a bit low it does get better. Look after yourself.
Thanks for the poem.
Jean x
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 21:42 |
Helen
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Re: I'm still here
Hi Gill
Thank you, i read that poem and cried, i hope my man is "stll here" watching over me, i could cope knowing that he is near but so far, its just the thought of never seeing him again.
Thank you for sharing the poem.
Helen(s)x
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 22:13 |
Jan
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Re: I'm still here
Oh Gill
What a lovely poem, I am writing this through tears, Something guided you to that book I am sure.
I believe they are still around us looking after us till we are strong again, & giving us signs occasionally,
I had a visit, he said dont cry because I died but smile because I lived.
Huggs Jan x
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 22:36 |
penny mc
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thank you that a very heart warming poem.
had to read it twice as it mad me cry and now smile
thank you again for putting it on
penny mc
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 22:58 |
Irene
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Re: I'm still here
Thanks for posting this poem. I hope and believe that my darling is still around. Not being able to see him is really difficult.
Irene
Posted on 08/03/2007 at 23:19 |
bridget
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Hi Gill - yes thanks for the poem - I'm not sure it is getting any easier either but perhaps just different. Been to Richard's grave today and I realised there have only been two rainy Thursdays in 21 weeks. The sun shone again this afternoon - I feel he is "still here". love and hugs as ever. Bridget
Posted on 09/03/2007 at 01:12 |
Lorraine
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Re: I'm still here
Hiya Gill thats a lovely poem and a fantastic book. I bought it a couple of months ago and got a lot of comfort from it. It is now doing the rounds with my sister in laws and mother in law. I'm looking forward to getting it back again.
Sorry your going through an even tougher time at the moment, your in my thoughts (((( hugs)))))
Take care of yourself
Lorraine x
Posted on 09/03/2007 at 01:37 |
