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Topic: No energy and the Tarot
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Lucy
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No energy and the Tarot
Husband died 12 weeks ago today. Have no energy, don't want to do anything but think about his suicide today. Went out for lunch with friends, hated every minute, came home early. Mother invited me and kids round for dinner - refused, though i had vowed to accept all invitations. Feel awful, don't want to be here again, look awful. No life left. No love left. Dreamed he told me he was worried about the furrows on my face. Cast tarot cards (don't believe of course, something to do, last did this at secondary school to raise money for charity!) last night, they showed the Devil behind me and The World in front of me with Judgement as the final outcome. From the little book that comes with the cards, that would seems a tremendously accurate and positive reading....Any views on this from other mad supersticious widows
Posted on 14/09/2007 at 15:48 |
Lucy
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Re: No energy and the Tarot
Sorry, I'm superstitious about bad spelling too (my husband was the best best speller in the universe, he really was, and I need to maintain some standards in his memory, even though I no longer brush my teeth or hair).
Posted on 14/09/2007 at 16:25 |
Lyn
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Re: No energy and the Tarot
Hi Lucy
Another suicide widow here. Since Toms death I have to leave the hall light on. Its been 23 months but I dont want him in the dark.
Bastard kept me in the dark though,I didn't know how bad he was feeling.
I see spiritulist quite alot. Especially when I'm lethargic, no energy and tearful. One should live at my house cos I feel that way most of the time.
Its so new for you at the present. Dont be so hard on yourself, The shock does strange things to us. Have you lost your memory yet? Do what you feel is right for you and the children. Take your time. The pain last a long time, Only you will know when your ready to do more. My e.mail is [email protected] if you want to chat.
Take care xx
P.S hope my spelling is ok ha! ha!
Posted on 14/09/2007 at 20:20 |
Lucy
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Re: No energy and the Tarot
Yes. my memory is not all that it was. My 15 year old told me not to be so self-pitying when I explained to him that I was tired because I had to do twice as much work and had twice as much responsibility since his father died. He never discusses or even mentions his father's death. Had to look at happy families in the restaurant where I picked up take-away. Feel like and old old lady whose life is over. Don't believe in the supernatural or in God, tarot was a joke really (his cards, but he just liked cards, also a 'rationalist', but his actions were certainly not rational, or maybe they were to him), but strange that it came out the way it did. Wanted a positive sign so much, and it seemed to give me one. Have had quite quite enough.
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