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Topic: Sleepless night !
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Lesley IW
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Sleepless night !
it is a beautiful clear night, not too much light pollution so lots of stars. Tony loved star gazing, if you get the chance go to Egypt and take a trip to the desert at night, it is magnificent.
I am having a meeting with my boss
tomorrow, I decided it was time I went back to work all be it part time at first, I thought I was ok with this but as I am still awake perhaps I am not . My admin assistant phoned me this evening to 'touch base' why do people ask 'how are you doing ?' 'how are the kids coping ?' I hear myself saying Im fine we're fine when I actually want to scream at them don't ask as you really don't want to know ! I feel very intolerant, maybe I had better manage my department from behind a closed door and not actually have any employee contact !
Tony bought us tickets for the Paul Wellor concert, I took my 14 year old daughter, she was brillient great company but I just wanted to go home and curl up on the sofa, every thing seems so pointless.
Sorry, I know im not the only one to feel sad.
night x
Posted on 28/07/2008 at 02:13 |
Mary P
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Re: Sleepless night !
Too much time to think during the night and your thoughts go round and round and don't make any sense. Not that anything makes sense anymore.
Think carefully about going back to work. It can be good for making you actually get up and get out, but if the stress gets to you it isn't worth it. I loved going back and working with the chidlren, but I made a lot of mistakes in supervising and that has caused problems that are still ongoing.
Hope you get some sleep.
M x
Posted on 28/07/2008 at 02:29 |
Natasha
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It's 5am where I am and I haven't managed to sleep yet either. I am supposed to be returning to uni and finishing my degree but it seems pointless and insignificant. It's hard to have patience with the small irritations. It's hard to have patience with the small irritations.
I think maybe returning is a good thing to try, but if it doesn't work out then maybe it's too soon.At least you will have tried, and you'll know. That's the way I'm trying to look at it. It's terrifying though. Good luck with the meeting.
N x
Posted on 28/07/2008 at 09:53 |
June
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Re: Sleepless night !
Some years ago I stood in Wadi RUM, Jordan with my husband Dave in awe of the
magnificent celestial scene above us. It brings me to tears remembering this as he was a keen stargazer and introduced our two sons and others to astronomy.He always had a telescope
and latterly bought an electronic one but due to work pressure and
illness in the past year he didn't use it much
(a lesson there somewhere for us all)
it's been only six weeks since his death and I feel overwhelming grief that he could not continue the interests he loved.
I've got into the habit of staying up as late as possible so that I fall asleep straight away. Not a good habit but my way of coping.
Best wishes wth work but if you become more stressed by others insensitivity
s-d them and take more time to recover if you have to.
Take care
June
Posted on 28/07/2008 at 21:28 |
M
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Re: Sleepless night !
Lesley
Two weeks short of 6 months for me and I still continue to live in 'Thatcher time'. that is 4 to 5 hrs sleep per night. Year since diagnosis and I wasn't exactly sleeping like a log then!
I too am fed up with the constant Q's of 'how are you?' 'How you doing'. I now have a solution that stops them in their tracks and sends the ones that I can't be bothered with away. I get all poetic on them. Previously I have used 'As two I was everything, as one I am nothing' and 'How am I, I am as I was the day my wife died, alone and lost'. My latest reply, as I stare through them with my serious expression is....'I am sailing on an ocean of grief and there are storms on the horizon'. Feel free to try...it certainly works getting rid of those with little empathy and it gives me some amusement to see their confused faces.
M
Posted on 28/07/2008 at 22:11 |
