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Topic: What Next?
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What Next?
Everyday I seem to have something new to over come?
I have had an ok day today despite my car service of £240 which i really dont have at the mo!
I met up with some old work colleagues for a drink in the sunshine earlier and had a great afternoon chatting, Then my greatest oldest mate met me later after he'd finished work and we drank into the eve,. Then another mate joined us and we ended up having a lovely evening.
All good, until I tried to walk home with one of my buds and i let rip!
Ok it had been a long afternoon/evening but Id been around peeps that love me and know me well, so felt comfy. I completely broke down on the way home and sobbed my heart out in the middle of the street! My hubby died 6 wks ago on wednesday!
With the help of my amazing mate I managed to ger home - to tbe greeted with our wedding dvd that my mum had collected for me today (we got married 4 wks before hubby died and even the professional videoman couldnt finish it before now).
I have just sat and watched the dvd, half drunk on my own at some stupid o'clock and have now hit the real SHOCK stage of my bereavement. I actually thought I was already there, but think it is now goin in?
I feel so sick, though it was so special that I could see a moving and living image of my gorgeous hubby!
To top it all I have recieved an emails from my ex hubby (I have bee divorced before). Having not had an contact with me for a very long time ,he now wants to phone me to chat - having heard of 'my recent loss'.
My head is all over and there is no wy I can go to bed yet!!
Anyone still up?
x
Posted on 29/07/2008 at 01:22 |
Sally
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Re: What Next?
sorry there was no one to reply last night,
i just wanted to say that i hope you are ok this morning. you are doing so well at only 6 weeks,
take care of you, it sounds like you have some fantastic friends
Sally
Posted on 29/07/2008 at 09:25 |
marilyn
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Re: What Next?
hello ik
just to say you are not alone about 6 wks into this nightmare i went out with a friend for a meal it ended up me and my friend deciding to finish the night off in a local pub i live in a rural area only got the pub no shop no bustop ,any way i got drunk well you would wouldent you no drink for 6 weeks silly me kept thinking i did not want to become a alchoholic totally showed myself up by crying while playing darts / left pub hardley able to stand then my friend rushed back in and gave the locals an earfull because as we left she heard them talking about me needless to say i am now 5 month into this journey and have not ventured into the pub again. have a bottle off wine now and then do not think i am an alcoholic.as for the ex mine lives next to 2 off my children so when i visit i see him this was hard at first but when i think off the situation i now find myself in.the thought is his job in the past was to help me have three lovely children .my bobs job was to make me know what it felt like to be loved and love in return no way will i go back to the first husband he supplied the children so his job in my life is through.i do not know which way i will go in this crossroad off life but back is not an option hope you are better today and your thoughts are a bit easier keep posting people on this site will keep listining
Posted on 29/07/2008 at 14:47 |
